Monday, August 10, 2009

Preperation H

I was just sitting here preparing for Honduras and I thought I would jot some of my thoughts down.
I am leaving in two days for my first missions trip and I am very excited. More nervous, because I do not speak Spanish fluently. I know the Lord will equip me!
I am teaching the kids on the armor of god "armadura de Dios". I remember praying a few years ago for God to use me. It has been a continual prayer, that God use me in any area He sees fit.
How awesome God is! He has used what the enemy meant for death to reverse my pain and destruction for good. Four years ago a drug addict and now I am traveling telling people about Jesus to little kids and working in full time ministry.
--even though my days seem chaotic and fast even to the point to forgetting to breathe, Jesus continues to be faithful and omnipresent "knowing my every thought".--
I thank God for that.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Poetry

I thought a poem would be suffice for today

At a glance
A deep breath
Fill me once more
Take my hand for a dance

At one word
My punctured heart
Deep wounds
A daggering sword

One whisper
One gentle hello
One unforgettable night
My Lord
My knight

You stole my heart
You captured my soul
Twirl my Lord
Take my hand for a dance

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Starbucks Addict & a funeral

Coffee shops give a distinct smell. I know, I would know this because..??? I spend a lot of time in coffee shops, coffee huts, coffee stores...and for the smell, its leaves you smelling like fresh brewed java! I should invent a coffee java perfume and make millions. I truly am addicted to coffee! and books just to throw that in the mix.

On a more serious note, I went to a funeral today. One might call it a sad day and want to feel sympathy which is what normally happens during this time. But being at the funeral today stirred up such a tenacity within me to pour my life into others. Brother Paul Hamlin, within the short time that I knew him had so much joy that it poured into my life. At his funeral today, showed a legacy and a Christ centered life that I love to have and I long for.

Much to say, with tears of sorrow and tears of joy, today I have been given a gift to have known him.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Reality

I have come to the conclusion that I live a fast paced life. While on vacation I have realized that my life is forever ongoing and moving at all times...It wouldn't be me though without the Lord*, school, Life Challenge and balancing a social life along with homework, tests, life's drama and did I mention homework.

So I took a break, traveled a bit, scoured the country. Actually I went to Niles, Michigan and met some wonderful people that were as busy and chaotic as me. So the scenery changed, but life didn't.

I thought I would take this time to reflect on some things that I learned while on vacation.
1. I can now fasten a child into a car seat!
2. How to eat in abundance without throwing up
3. Sleep in.
4. Some pointers on being a Godly mother. (ill get into that later)
5. How to eat in abundance without throwing up
6. To forget that I have a midterm due, class next week and live without the internet for 5 days! can you believe it!

Th most important though is how life changes and how the Lord uses your inadequacies. I want to get married one day and have children and there is so much that I have to learn.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Deep Breath of God

It was about 7 am and I could feel the brisk cold air hit may face as I was standing once again at the bus stop. I love living in the city, I watch people drive pass on the way to work. I wonder where they are going, what life they live, what their children look like. As deep within my being I feel the presence of God. The living God is resonating within my being. As the sun rises it feels as if the earth is revolving vastly around me, yet my life is going oh so slow. I think that there are days lately that I have surreal moments and the epiphany awakens me that “Everything is going to be ok” I love how God works that way sometimes; just when you think that life is over as you know it, nothing is going the way you think it should and the enemy is at your heals day after day, God, in his amazing glory, gives you a glimpse of a sunrise. A cold, enlivening, breathe taking moment and you take a deep breathe of God. There are days when I don’t feel worth, beauty, I don’t see Jesus around me but, then there are days like today when the Detroit city lights whirl around the people mover. My friends laugh over silly jokes, I feel like I am in the center of Gods will and I pray for a homeless man outside begging for change. I thank God that I have life today and that truth wells in my soul.